A moment of truthfulness and love

On the eve of my birthday, I feel more mortal than ever, gone are these feeling of invincibility that are often part of this exuberance that accompany the earlier stage of life. I don't even know why I am writing these words, if it is not to highlight my personal angst about life and my own future.
I am just wondering if I am aging or if I am becoming more sensible to my own death or maybe both? 52 is very young to even think about these things. But I cannot help it , is it the desire to leave a trace on this earth that pushes me to express these heightened feeling. Is it my ancestral calling , my cabbalist grand-father that touches me from upstairs. Is it my dear mother who passed away 30 years ago that sends me a message.

Ron , "you must live life and celebrate it , everyday." Is that what she is telling me?

Around me, my friend's parents are getting older and some disappear, my own father is aging and trough these impressions, the fragility of life is forever more present.

These feelings with time are being more oppressive than ever. Why am I, so preoccupied with them?

This winter 2010 is alarmingly cruel, from the terrible and horrific Haitian tragedy, the continuous wars in Afghanistan and Irak. The dramatic economic news that keep piling here, joblessness, deficit, ineffectual congress, China, Iran.

In retrospect, the harshness of life needs a spiritual and emotional compensation, solitude and angst are not a good choice to live your life. I am not a depressive person but sometime, I really fall into a feeling of self-pity, and that is horrible. Maybe I am not alone there !

So my friends on the eve of both my birthday and the holiday of Love, just a reminder, we must celebrate life by loving our parents, family and friends. We must not be shy about expressing our feelings. Sharing love, telling our loved one. how much we love them and how important they are to us.

We may be only passing by on this earth but to the people who are close to us, we are their vessel of Love, they need us to be real and loving.

Love is the elixir of life, it's the perfume that render souls more beautiful, spray it generously.